the day i never knew would come

Yesterday was the day… I thought I’d be the only person who’ll back out in the relationship I am in… but I was wrong… terribly wrong… I thought I was the only one who is treated unfairly in the relationship… but now I realize… we share the same sentiment… if I was in his position I know I’d be more upset than I could ever imagine… I know I was wrong… I swear I know… although for me in my position I know it was not that grave… what the heck… I am just staying on my side if I think that way… so close minded… damn…
but what I do not know now is if it is right to “change” for some one… to forget myself… to not mind my wants… my personal interests… this may seem low but that is what I want to do… who would want to live a life in bars??? Well I don’t…
I thought I am not going to be affected… but I am… I really am… I guess it is because I still have feelings for that person… strong feelings… and I doubt if I’ll ever forget the feeling I have for him…
We were together for almost four years… every day seeing each other… but now the distance is miles and miles and counting… my heart and his heart slowly losing the feeling of togetherness… this is too much…
I thank God still… for some time in my life He has given me some one who’ll make me understand the feeling of being loved and loving…